Little Goals

I like to walk to the office from home daily. This walk gives me time to think. While I really like to live a slow life and avoid all the speed that the traffic and noise bring in, the thoughts always revolve around in my head. This reminds me that I had left 'The heartfulness way' in the middle, I gotta read it.

The office is not really far from my home. After I get out of the house, I only have to take a couple of turns and then it's a straight main road to work. I like to walk on the footpath on the right side. The road has a separator. There are small milestones on the way, the police station, the stall where a person sells Mausambi juice, the Nilgiris store, and the right turn just before a small park that leads to a peaceful path surrounded by trees and on the other side of it, are small nice houses.

Irrational Wisdom

When we are little, we learn how to learn things. We start learning once we understand how things are logically connected. Of course, for that, we do need to first understand how logic works. Many of us do get to spend a lot of time alone, just thinking about things, logically connecting them in some way or the other, experiment and then verify. We can then finally draw conclusions about something being right or wrong just by being rational, with logic. The best part is, it's not even an absolute thing. We could have our own logic to draw different conclusions for the same data. I also did the same, when I finally thought I could understand things, I became a rational person and created own set of rules for myself.

Blissful Awakening

Where am I?...I wake up after a long time. I don't know this place but it seems familiar for some reason. I see no one around me but lots of huge trees, leaves, rough pathways, animals and birds that don't seem to be scared of me. They look curious though, feels like they have not seen someone like me before. A cool breeze is blowing due to which trees sway, they don't seem to have complaints of any kind. I can hear the sound of a river flowing nearby. The sound is so full of tranquil. After a long time, I am feeling light, like I have never been tired, sad and lost my entire life. Is this bliss? Am I alive? I must be because I have never felt so alive in a while. I realize that I have a smile on my face.

Strangely, there is no fear in me. I get up and I look around, I am in a pursuit of something. There.., it seems so familiar. I have seen something like this before. Even if I had a language that I could speak, I wouldn't be able to explain the beauty that I find in its eyes and that serene smile. But there is no language that we know of, no words that we know to speak. Still, somehow, we are talking. There is no noise though that we can make. I ask her the place where I am and what all this is. And now I know, with a blink of her eyes. It tells me, this is my blissful awakening.

Hormones

We have always been talking about the good and the bad. The state of mind, the happiness that we look for and the contingencies that we try to avoid. The stability and satisfaction are what we have been thriving for, for a long time now. Of course, we are in pursuit of contentment. It has been continuing for long and yet we fail to define what it is that we are looking for. What am I looking for?

Nothing in Mind

With nothing in mind, I was born

No knowledge of truth or false

All the noise they have made

Worthless words they ever said

has lead me to here and now

I want to be silent and observe silence,

I want to rise again, with nothing in mind.

No Contingency

All his life

He was rife

with all the smallest doubt

the way he lived

for things, he limned-

all was trivial throughout

and at his fall

when the end did call

He knew it all was prime

(yet) it couldn’t have been

another way be seen

For life is not beyond time.

Word of Moment

I am moving, leaving behind all the sweet memories. Those sweet memories make me sad as I realize that I can never live the same moments again. It leaves me in a state where I am smiling and feeling pain at the same time. The pain is unbearable. The memories are blurry and it's becoming hard to understand whether I had a better life then or I have a better life now. I feel old and I realize I have lost a lot of things being unaware of their worth. I continue to loose them even today. The precious present moment slips from my palm as I listen to the concerns and plans of people in another dimension. The answer to secret questions somehow do not convince me. All the noise that I listen makes me wonder if there is a purpose already explained in an answer or a different purpose. Is really the only sane reason of human existence, love?

Trying to explain a reason, I write these words,
being within the limits - the words, my feelings remain unexplained.