Be

 When I look outside myself, there is so much happening. The chaos doesn't stop. There is fear and panic and an effort to stop the panic that creates even more panic. It's tough to find peace when everyone around you is absolutely not at peace. The constant fears forcing everyone to reach the judgements a little too soon. Such judgements that don't bring a promise of a better future. What's the point of reaching judgments at all then? Why do we forget that the only moment that's in our control, if there is any at all, is this, now. We will keep on sacrificing several nows being scared of the future and it will turn out to be totally different than what we could imagine. At least for the most of us. Wherever we are today, if we can't appreciate the goodness in the state of things that we have right now, maybe the future won't be so good after all. It is, perhaps, rightly said that the contentment can only be achieved from within, and if we have learnt to be truly content, the state of things around us can't affect it at all.

But maybe that is what the fight is all about nowadays. Meditation, yoga and mindfulness. That is probably what is helping people look inside and think about the world they have inside themselves. A few minutes away from the chaos.

Some say that if the bad didn't exist, people wouldn't appreciate the good. I wish that wasn't true. I wish people didn't wait for the bad to happen. I wish people had enough conscience to recognise the good as it is, in its absolute form.

Sometimes I imagine myself going to a different world. If that world is full of people who stay in harmony, then it's where people smile when they meet strangers, where they all love each other and most importantly, we know that the true love is when we let them be. Where everyone knows that irrespective of what happens, it is all going to be okay.

Winds

Whenever I think about life, I feel a warm hug. Whose hug that is, I do not know. Several emotions of various colours, mostly warm, automatically paint in front of my eyes. And when I continue to wander in the other world to find out what life is, these colours turn blue. They do not seem to represent life but things that make me understand the worth of things that matter in life. People, care, love, emotions, smiles, laughter, senses, kind words, these make up life. Then there are things that can't be avoided from becoming part of the life, and these are things that bring pain and sufferings. The one who becomes indifferent to every emotion, sees the happy and the sad, the same, but that ripples to affect others' lives and intensify their emotions. I have learnt my way of living as I continue to understand life even more and figure out if it's even worth figuring out what life is about. Experience. The one thing that doesn't separate the good from the bad, nor does it define them. Things don't end and thus the conclusion can not be achieved, and who can then define something as good or bad. The wind blows and brings some thoughts along, and it affects everyone in some way. And once the wind goes away, the things stand still and we wait for yet another wind to arrive. And if only we didn't have the warm emotions to cling to, these cold winds would blow us far away.

Too close and yet afar

Everybody doesn't get always a chance to live life the way they want. But we still, somehow, make our way of living. Combined together with all the randomness from this World, it becomes so much confusing to understand what's the right way. And the more boundless we try to be, the more dilemma it creates: Is my way of living right or how she lives is right? or does he know how life should be lived well enough? No matter how strong our beliefs are, I think one day everyone struggles with the thought of whether what they are doing is the right thing to do.

And how happy are we really from the inside thinking about all this?

A Choice

A choice is to be made
far from the loved
the voices in the head
asks to stay and be there

a friend is in need
and he does get lonely
reasons be a lot more
a single enough only

Love is in us
and not in us apart
what sustains the world
than love in thy heart?

hold the hand now
not just let it go
regrets are out there
and always does it grow.

Time does not wait,
nor does it rewind
leave it to the fate
or be one of your kind.

Quiet

This is about the morning incident. I had to go to a place to meet one of my colleagues from a company where we worked together for some time. I thought I can't do that without breakfast. I mean, I had only slept for 2 and a half hours. I needed some energy.

Fantasy

I have always heard people talk about fantasies, but everytime I felt like I had none. I have seen people writing fiction, it does require quite a bit of imagination. But I love writing about things that are. But fantasies do keep us alive. Something fake but helps us survive the reality.

I suddenly realised today the fantasies that I have had. The ones that keep me alive with the hope that someday I would live those moments in reality.

I imagine at times driving a car or being in a car with family, on a high way but surrounded by trees, it is drizzling or the sky is cloudy. It's a non scary route, we are not scared of any mishaps. We are long way from home and not in a rush to reach somewhere. Not scared that it might get dark and that it might get difficult to drive in night. Knowing all that, we just breathe fresh, pure air. The eyes can see green all around. We stop and get out of the car with a flask of hot tea. We pour it in paper cups and smile and take a long breath as we sip our tea.

There is another image that appears in my mind when I chase cars around my head. This one I can really feel like I am living it. I see vast area, dark green grass all around, the ground is not level but the grass feels so natural and premium. It's a dark blue grayish sky. With clouds. It's evening. I see myself lying down on the grass. I see no one around to the far distance. There is no worry or terror of anything. I just close my eyes as it drizzles. I feel no pain. There is nothing in mind. It makes me smile every single time. It is said that we keep on wishing for something or the other thing, one level accomplished, want to achieve another. I just want to live this one. I believe I would not want anything else, then.

Hero Memories

At times, we do want to look back on our lives and remember the moments that have been precious to us. Unlike the movie endings, it's rare to have such moments that would make us heroes. If only we had not always been concerned about the very next moment of taking a decision, maybe we would have taken some drastic decisions in our lives. But as of now, how many memories do we really have that would make us feel like a hero?